School

This week is the last week of my teaching career.

I'm teaching in a school located next to a public housing estate where most of my students' are from families with low or no education.

Most of their parents don't even work. Maybe they're lazy, maybe they are so unskillful and can't find a job.

My students do quite poor academically, they're almost illiterate in English, and they can't do simple calculations.

E.g.

they confuse "r" with "l"
they can't be bothered memorizing the multiplications table
some of the are like 5 7" , 15 years old lad but still stuck in primary grade 6.
they swear a lot

I'm quite surprised there are so many (this kind of people) still exist in this society.

What kind of job can they get when they grow up?

A lot of the times I really want to teach them how to do addition and subtraction (:-p I'm working as a supply teacher in primary school), but my class is a chaos, kids running around hitting each other, screaming, yelling and shouting.

I feel sorry for them because I think they're all nice kids but they have a bad upbringings.

8:57 p.m

Classic examples about the effect of good upbringing

There are some problems with the pipe in my apartment, the landlord brought some fixer man to fix it, my landlord spoke good English, and he seemed very decent.

That's why he lives in a good neighbour hood. That's why his son turns out to be a decent man.

Hehe...am I getting my point across? I suck in expressing myself and I feel frustrated about not being able to tell people how I feel

My worst fear

I went to McDonald and get a take out small chips today. When I opened the bag, there were barely any chips inside. I turned around and said I want another one. Am I cheap?

He added more chips and gave it back to me with an unfriendly manner.

I thought, can he get a job anywhere else if he can't accept criticism?

I'm not mad at him. My first job was working in McDonald. I worked there cuz I was 15 and I couldn't get a part time job anywhere else. I understand the stressful part of his job.

I once saw a dumb person getting food from McDonald, the chips he got was really small, he pointed at the chips expressing his dissatisfactions, but the staff ignored him cuz he can't converse to them.

I was chit chatting with my students today, I was surprised most of my students' parents were unemployed and are taking aids from the government. A few of them have jobs, one is working as a road work worker, another one is working in fast a food restaurant, another is working as a house wall painter, .

I feel sorry for my students because when they don't know how to do homework, they don't have anyone at home to enquire. They also don't have anyone at home to force them prepare for exams.

I saw a disabled and disfigured homeless female begging for money in the street. I think she's pitiful.

I feel that I'm so lucky and I'm thankful for that.

A lot of people has turned to religion and said that they feel content after having religious beliefs.

I don't understand how do people feel differently after having faith. No offense. I don't have any objections against any religion. To me, it's almost like you believe in something you've never seen or never communicate with.

I have a headache (Almost everyday)

6:45 am

Good morning Hong Kong!

A beautiful Mind

I cannot imagine how a person's life will be like if he/she can hear voices everyday. (I'm referring to delusions experienced by people with mental illness)

I'm tired. 12:15 a.m here.

Does anyone know what's the fate of the previous child prodigy?

4 am

Sunday morning 4 am.

:-p I'm done with my internet surfing fix.

Going to sleep now.

Good night everyone.

Back to work tomorrow :-( Arh!

書到用時方恨少,女人強起來

I went to take a written test today, I feel bad cuz I have very poor knowledge in everything.

I admire successful women.

Hong Kong Summer

Today is my last day of easter holiday and tomorrow I will get back to work.

Phew I don't want my holiday to end.

I watched 傷城 video yesterday, 金城武 and 舒琪 are really cute. In the movie, they're such a sweet couple.

Today is quite hot and sunny. When I went out this morning, I can feel summer. Hot, humid, stuffy and noise pollution from road work.

I feel sad this morning. I remember in one of my Bio lab class, my lab partner said to me she didn't want to work with me anymore cuz she felt that both of us couldn't handle the lab and she wanted to work with someone who could help her get through the lab.

At the end, I got an A in that class. I admit I'm not bright. I must have appeared to other people that I'm really dumb.

檸檬茶, 廣播劇, 11點幾, 12點幾

心動

有多久沒見你　以為你在那裡
原來就住在我心底　陪伴著我的呼吸
有多遠的距離　以為聞不到你氣息
誰知道你背影這麼長　回頭就看到你

過去讓它過去　來不及
從頭喜歡你　白雲纏繞著藍天
如果不能夠永遠走在一起
也至少給我們懷念的勇氣　擁抱的權利
好讓你明白　我心動的痕跡

總是想再見你　還試著打探你消息
原來你就住在我的身體
守護我的回憶

完全因你

從前的我　迷途失望
而人海裡面困惑只感到恐慌
迷途的我　如何泊岸
浮沉中碰著這份愛使我嚮往

完全因你　重燃希望
無窮黑暗內擦亮了心裡燭光
完全因你　情懷激盪
隨緣竟碰著你令我得到釋放

你改變命運的結局　陪流淚的我笑著看
一個韆鞦於春雨裡　猶像我心在搖盪
打破命運為我阻攔冬日風雪下降
能令一生不迷網

從前的我　從前的禍
明明出錯但你令我擺脫痛楚
完全因你　來臨相助
而人生已沒有不可悠然地唱罷這首歌
多得你用心再造我

感激你用心愛著我

終生美麗
塔尖仍舊記得　這擁抱極美好
愛有千斤重　重過無涯的鐵路
你那手指再笨拙再粗　肌膚也被你修補
從前那一位　永未能做到

是你去喚醒我　努力才能被愛慕
但回頭目睹你　為我好自己不好
我這幸運兒合著眼睛　只得你沉重身影
如果這記憶非愛情　連天都不會太高興

莫非可終生美麗　才值得勾勾手指發誓
對你不止感激敬禮　當你知己才是虛偽
莫非多一分秀麗　才值得分享我的一切
給我自信　給我地位　這叫幸福　不怕流逝
任他們多漂亮　未及你矜貴

記憶無論再輕　輕不過脈搏聲
靠你的手臂　抱我人潮中暢泳
我這幸運兒幸運到一轉身找得到你　來為我打氣
如果可抱起這愛情　連天都會替我高興

因有自信　所以美麗　使我自卑都放低
在半空之中親你　不管身世


心動 is a good movie. It's totally from a woman's perspective. It shows how we don't really know what we are doing. In the movie, she hung on to her love to 金誠武. Her relationship with 金誠武 lasted on and off for decades.

I was brought up in a family where my mom kept the radio on almost 24 hours a day.

I used to listen to radio every night before I go to sleep.

Did anyone listen to 廣播劇 - 未完的小說 before?

What about Jan Lam - 老人院 ?

I found some of the 903 radio shows on youtube before.

When I listen to them now, it feels kinda shallow and not interesting. But it was good reminiscing moments.

I'm a silly girly girl. I like hero figured man. That's why I like spider man.

I like watching movies by Andy Lau , Tony Leung, Sean Lau...etc

I'm not interested in movies by Twins or Ella...one of those new teens idols.

My friend Raymond said it's because I'm from last generation that's why I liked last generation teen idols.

I guess female products that promote 堅持 , 執著, 強 qualities of women will do good.

I feel that the passed away of Leslie Cheung is 好可惜

d*ck / leg / hannibal

12:14 am here.

I'm tired. I'm on work holidays at the moment. Even I don't have to be at work, I still have a lot of personal stuff to do (like everyone else, I know). e.g. laundry, clean up the apartment...etc

A friend of mine called Tina, she's really smart.

You know like when someone did something / said something to you before, you didn't think it's a big deal, but later when you become more mature and grown up, you realized / understand their meanings and intentions.

This is how I feel when I looked back at the stuff Tina did before. Everything she had done, I just started it out.

Maybe she's really smart. Maybe she has intelligent parents that gave her lots of sagacious advises. Maybe she has a lot of friends so she's so aware of different resources available out there.

I keep spilling stuff today. coke / water / soy source

I saw two rings that I really like today. I'm gonna get them. They are too big for me. I will get them altered.

I heard that there will be a new learning model in school. The integrated approach. That means there will no special school and everyone will be mingled into one class. E.g. autistic children / ADD (attention deficit disorder) children

I don't know whether or not it'll be good. On the good side, there will be lots of diverse mixtures in the school and kids can learn about each other. But on the negative side, how will those kids feel when they are being stigmatized or considered as different?

I asked 5 guys this question:

If one day you got kidnapped by hannibal and he will cut off one part of your body, either your leg or your d*ck, which part will you let him amputate?

All guys I have asked chose leg.

Wow.

I asked 5 female friends:

If your bf got kidnapped by hannibal and he asked you to answer that question for your bf, all girls chose d*ck.

hehe...I guess that's why men will never understand women and vice versa.