I'm on the bus going home from work.
I worry I'm starting to get mental illness because I always like to write journals ( & talk to myself through writing?)
I'm on the highway. It's dark and quiet outside. I can't see other cars.
Everyday, after I finish work, I feel sad (I usually finish work at 8:30 pm)
I thought "What a long working hrs / shitty day with low paid salary"
I start wotk at 9 am but I always want to get to work at 7 o'clockish (or 8 o'clockish) so I can do some personal stuff.
I've been reading "Tis a memoir" by Frank McCourt.
(I haven't finished the book)
Quotes:
"That's what gives me such pleasure, lying on the bed and thinking of the things you can do that nobody else can interfere with"
"I lie on the bed listening to New York, people talking and laughing, and I wonder if I;ll ever be aprt of the city, out there talking and laughing"
I feel that I'm a crazy person.
Somehow, I came across with some 志雲飯局 videos on youtube last night.
I admire 志雲's mannerism and I wish I can talk like him
- calm presentation
- good verbal skills
- confident.
3 comments:
If the saying is "talking to yourself is the first sign of madness" is true, the many in the world are mad. I think we all have an inner voice saying things, I think its only when you have multiple inner voices and they start arguing with each other that you start having a problem.
Personally I think the inner voice is essential for inner calm and serenity. It is but my belief is that people with very poor imaginations, and no internal world to speak of, are the ones who always restless, who can't sit still, and must be constantly doing something, constantly yammering and talking, who fear the silence of their own minds.
I think its unhealthy to think that you are only interesting if you are successful and that you are only succesful if you catch the public eye. I don't know if you get "Big Brother" in Hong Kong, but the things contestants will do to get onto television and appear interesting, makes the whole fame thing just a freak show.
Anyway cheer up, with work and life you have to do the things you do anyway. You can look on the negative side and make yourself unhappy, or look on the positive side and make things more bearable. If by being unhappy and miserable you can change your circumstances for the better go ahead. But if by being unhappy, you cannot change your circumstances than why dwell on it?
I want to know if U think U know yourself better through writing blog coz I want to know myself better too, and I am finding my way.
Sometimes, U got nobody to talk to so U think writing blog could somehow relieve your pressure, don't U? There are too much pressure around us. As I can see the background of your room, U should come from a pretty wealthy family and I can see from your words that you are well educated. So money is not a problem. Then, at your age, there seems to be nothing worth worrying about. Just relax. Enjoy your life.
from F.I.
Hi F.l
I don't think writing blog can help me understand myself better.
But I find writing blog a good way to relief my pressure.
Thanks for your comments. I really appreciate it.
Thanks :-)
Be Happy. Best Wishes.
Happy 端午節 !
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