Photos

I'm looking at the photos you took.

Looking at the places you've been to.

Looking at things your eyes had seen.

Looking at the familiar "cute & silly" face you made in the photo.

Realizing we live in such a different world.

Going Insane

I feel that I'm going insane due to boredom n isolation

Friday Afternoon

2 pm here.

I should be studying very hard. Cuz I didn't do anything at all this thanksgiving break.

That's so bad of me. (and I'm spending a shit load of money to come here to study)

I'm a graduate student.

I have about 2.5 years to go before I finish my study.

I feel that the "reward" is too far away, (and without any gratifications along the process), I wanna give up.

I just feel that - it's ok to give up cuz I already have an undergrad degree

hmm...

F*cking Hell

This is how I feel right now.

9:17 pm. ARHHHHH!!!

I'm extremely lonely and bored.

What's the matter with me.

I don't like to moan and whine. Cuz that's annoying.

But I do feel extremely shit.

What is wrong with me.

I don't know what more to say besides I'm so f*cking isolated, lonely and bored.

I feel crap cuz if i don't go to myspace and chat with strange people, I don't have anyone else to chat with.

What's the hell is wrong with me. Am i that shitty and crap?

I have no interest chatting with weirdo in myspace, they're rude, strange, not funny, some are like 14, and others are like 56. F*cking hell.

And I'm getting so many random messages - "you are pretty" "you are cute"

If i'm cute and pretty, then why I'm so isolate and by myself all the time.

I'm feeling sorry for myself. cuz i'm in my late 20s.

I need help. Please rescue me.

Happy News

Congrats J for getting good grades for your exams!!! You deserve it!!! You work so hard. I'm proud of you!!!

You study harder than me! And you work so hard too. Now I'm going to feel so humble when I talk to you. :-p

Another news is:

My netherland net friend, he met a girl on the internet several years ago. She's from Brazil, they met up once a year, and they're so in love with each other (I suppose :-p)

and finally, she's done with her Bsc in Brazil, and found a job in netherland, and they're together now!!

wowo!!!

Unbelievable

10 am. Good Monday morning.

Updates :-)

I felt touched to see the message "Where the hell are you?"

cuz people do give a sh*t about my existence :-p

I just finished a few exams and I'm having Thanksgiving break right now. 1 week off from school.

I guess I haven't been motivated to write blogs cuz I want to talk to a real person, instead of saying my thoughts in front of a cold computer.

(sorry for saying that - to those who likes visiting my blog)

So what are you guys doing on thanksgiving?

8:35 pm. I'm back from a long phone chat. I feel relief :-p

Have a good one guys!!!

Chat soon.