Kitty Cat

So, my cat's condition gone worse again today.

She's not eating / drinking much.

She doesn't really meow today.

This course of antibiotics hasn't finished yet. It helped her a little bit at the being, but now she's worse again :-(

I'm sad cuz I feel that maybe I haven't taken good care of her. I feel like I'm a little bit responsible for her death (she's a stray though, when I got her, she's already sick)

She kinda makes a good company (sometimes), when I come home from school, she greets me (hehe...to ask for food though...but it's ok :-)

So...I'm thinking...what shall I do with her? I really think she has leukemia, she fits into all the signs and symptoms of leukemia. The vet saids he would recommend a blood test to confirm it, but I think you can pretty much tell she does even without a blood test.

So...what shall I do? Put her down to relief her from misery of being sick? Or shall I keep feeding her hopefully she'll live 5-8 years?

A internet source says they may live 5-8 years even with leukemia.

This is a really tough decision. I really don't want to see her die.

This afternoon, after I fed her medicine, I put her on the table when I fed her...after I'm done, I put the medicine back to the fridge...when I came out...she' still laying on the table, not moving. I shook her...still not moving...I thought she's died. After several minutes...she got up.

She has poo on her...she doesn't even know...everytime when she's really sick...she doesn't know there's poo on her paws.

Just a side note, she scratched me when I was feeding her medicine on the weekend, and my lymph node is tender. I read that cat scratch disease usu will recover by itself. I hope I'll be fine.

P.S If I'm going to get a pet in the future, I think I'm gonna call him/her Toughy...hehe...kinda gay...I know...but I like it.