So followed my panic attack yesterday, I cried when i ate lunch today, I cried last nite, I couldn't sleep, everytime I lay on the bed the depressive thoughts creeps inside my head.
I really need help.
I'm worry that I'll get psychiatric illness.
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I've had these panics before, although probably not the same reasons - but there was a point I really "worried about how my life would turn out" then realized as a human, I have very little influence over anything in the world except for ME. I can only control me and nothing more and realizing this helped my grasp the concept of letting things go that is out of my hands.
I know it is easy to say and hard to do and being me, I always try to "take control of everything". I understand the feeling of being lost in such a complex world and not only that, but lost to your own self and barely recognizing yourself.
Even as a guy, I've felt the urge to cry before and because there's always something new to face and endure in life. I remember times when I wanted to not cry in public but could not hold myself in. I think as a male, we're taught inherently that we should never cry and even if we do, it should be done in public for it to be "acceptable". If crying is your way of releasing the anguish, then so be it.
I used to have a lot of depressive thoughts, ones that scared me greatly too, like the thought of growing old and dying and even once in a while I still have those today, but really, it goes back to me learning to accept the realities of life - that things come and go, great things happen, shit happens. Sometimes I'd panic and be like "OMG, what if I don't wake up in the morning and this is my last conscious moment?" it it freaks me out as I lay there trying to fall asleep. I think what I did was occupy my mind with something completely irrelevant so that I would not "think back"... trying to think positively sometimes doesn't work since as you said, the negativity is much greater. If you think about something that is neutral and does not invoke feelings whatsoever, it takes your mind off the situations.
If you're aware that you might end up with an illness, that is at least already part of the battle, that you're still sane and knowledgeable. Nevertheless, you should never downplay the need for professional help if you ever feel completely overwhelmed. For others to help you, you must first help yourself.
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